15 down. Still trying to be positive, but it's sure not easy. There seems to be no end in sight. I'm thinking of getting back on the 'Fertility A Train', because, what the hell? Might as well, while I'm waiting for Jordyn. If only the Fertility Train was a pleasant ride, instead of a nightmareish roller coaster. Stop it, Cari!! Positive thoughts. Any advice from those adopting who have gotten back on the 'train' would be very welcome!
The latest buzz is that someone with an LID like mine (October 2006) will be lucky to receive a referral in 2011. Gee, that would only make it 5 years from start to finish. No problem.
I have questions: Is the CCAA really going to accept files that are 5 or 6 years old? Will the Ontario government require me to continuously renew my documents? Do I live my life in limbo, or try to truly live?
Well, considering my New Year's vow to live positively, I'm going to put this aside and continue to live. I'm healthy. I'm in love with a wonderful man (so what if I can't marry him for years to come or I won't be able to adopt? Neither of us are going anywhere, and in the grand scheme of things, life is long). I'm happy. I'm employed. Yes, this SUCKS, and I'm angry. But I'm not going to let it make me a negative, bitter person.
A very happy New Year to my bloggy friends! Let's make this year a really positive one....lots of fun, laughter, love, and many speedy referrals for our children.
The waiting is horrible, but this year, I vow to REALLY, REALLY TRY to not let it get me down too much. To not let it beat me over the head and heart. And to not let it overshadow the good things in my life.
